Sometimes you read a book that turns out to just be a series of call-out posts about your life. Sometimes you watch the main character struggle through life in her self-destructive patterns and you think "god that's me". Sometimes you have to put down a book for a moment to google "Am I dissociating?" "What is dissociation like" "How to tell when you're dissociating"

Seriously I fucking loved this book though. It described feelings about myself and life and sitting on a bicycle in the middle of the city at night not quite sure where you're going that I've never seen described before, and it was just an incredible read.